11.25.2001
11.25.2004 & on.

i love you.

i just.. want to play.. my fucking.. world of warcraft.
so WHAT THE FUCK is this bullshit??

*_* can't wait to go back and get a philly // gyro // sausageegg&cheese w/ bacon from kenny.

sometimes -- just sometimes -- i envy people who can truly believe
in something intangible. i envy people who can have faith in that which
cannot be proved exists. i envy the strength they draw from leaning on "the powers above," and i am genuinely moved by their words proclaiming the love they have for a being they "know" loves them regardless of anything.

..and then i hear/see/read/am otherwise affected by people who insist
that because i am unable to give into what i believe is a weakness, i'm
going straight to hell; people who are adamant that, because i am
incredulous, and skeptical, and doubtful, i am ignorant and need to be
"educated" in the awesome power that is "god"; people who simply must press their views of religion on me, despite the fact that i am cleary not interested in what they have to say.. and i'm reminded of exactly why i'm grateful that i'm not
a religious zealot (because a: they're annoying; b: i know myself well
enough to know that i'd be just like them if i were a believer, rather
than like the people that invoke a sense of awe and envy; and c:
they're annoying)

<rambling>
~_~ i had such an articulate entry planned out.. so many points to
make, examples to give.. but then i realized it'd be a waste of time on
my part, since the majority of people who read xanga entries have the
attention span of a goldfish and anything with a length greater than 3
lines with no breaks is tossed away as too long of a read to bother
with. if anyone is [cue gasps of shock] interested, i'll protected post
the monster of an essay of an entry someday. eventually.
</rambling>

o_O i'm getting humungously fat. ahhh!!