i miss everyone. and by everyone, i mean everyone.

if you’re reading this i probably miss you.
if you’re not reading this i probably miss you too.

i miss being me.

i would prefer to be insane and live in the world of dreams than be
forced to suffer the intervals of sanity better known as life.

haven’t written anything in a quarter of a year.. and sadly, nothing’s changed
sometimes i get so sick of who i am around certain people that i just
want to get the fuck away & move to the middle of nowhere in some
green valley with no electricity.

q: what kind of girl is a game freak?
a: this one.

5
straight weeks of world of warcraft. by the time school starts again
i’ll be one of those pasty white things that crawl out from their hole
with ginormous eyes that blink repeatedly in the sun.

i need to go out.. ._.

sometimes i seriously entertain homicidal urges. is that bad?

on another note, i got that free ipod i posted about a couple months ago. yay me
and thanks go to eddie, matt, gary, james, and andy for that. <3

11.25.2001
11.25.2004 & on.

i love you.

i just.. want to play.. my fucking.. world of warcraft.
so WHAT THE FUCK is this bullshit??

*_* can’t wait to go back and get a philly // gyro // sausageegg&cheese w/ bacon from kenny.

sometimes — just sometimes — i envy people who can truly believe
in something intangible. i envy people who can have faith in that which
cannot be proved exists. i envy the strength they draw from leaning on “the powers above,” and i am genuinely moved by their words proclaiming the love they have for a being they “know” loves them regardless of anything.

..and then i hear/see/read/am otherwise affected by people who insist
that because i am unable to give into what i believe is a weakness, i’m
going straight to hell; people who are adamant that, because i am
incredulous, and skeptical, and doubtful, i am ignorant and need to be
“educated” in the awesome power that is “god”; people who simply must press their views of religion on me, despite the fact that i am cleary not interested in what they have to say.. and i’m reminded of exactly why i’m grateful that i’m not
a religious zealot (because a: they’re annoying; b: i know myself well
enough to know that i’d be just like them if i were a believer, rather
than like the people that invoke a sense of awe and envy; and c:
they’re annoying)

<rambling>
~_~ i had such an articulate entry planned out.. so many points to
make, examples to give.. but then i realized it’d be a waste of time on
my part, since the majority of people who read xanga entries have the
attention span of a goldfish and anything with a length greater than 3
lines with no breaks is tossed away as too long of a read to bother
with. if anyone is [cue gasps of shock] interested, i’ll protected post
the monster of an essay of an entry someday. eventually.
</rambling>

o_O i’m getting humungously fat. ahhh!!